Sunday, April 20, 2014
I have, over the last few weeks, been having what I can only call a small emotional crisis. I am anxious all the time, have a tendency to blow up at the smallest detail and have been quite frankly annoyed at just about everything and everyone, including loved ones, friends, and my job. I feel overwhelmed, unable to focus. I've actually had a couple of days last week where I was so unable to focus, I got lost in my territory for work, a part of the county that I have worked in for over a decade. Work, home life, social life….it has all run together and it has really begun to affect my physical and mental health. I am emotionally and physically exhausted. I also know that I would be a lot worse off without the support of Babaloo, Rodan and Taffy, all of whom have suffered through daily "mac and cheese" moments, being yelled at and hung up on. Not one of them has told me what I "should" do or how to do things. They have listened to me and let me vent/whine/bitch, And I love all three of them for it.
My life has felt really out of control and I am going to try to take some control back. I have an appointment with a therapist tomorrow afternoon and am going to try to live my life with a little more structure and focus.
The podcast isn't going anywhere - I truly love doing it (it gives me some o that structure I was talking about) and I love the connection I have with all of you guys that listen to it. That being said, we are taking this week off, not only because it's Easter, but I need a small break. I have every intention of us coming back next week and on our usual regular schedule. I just need the break this week. And when we come back, we will be silly, and inappropriate and all the things we usually are, but I'm sure this topic will come up as well. I also expect my cohosts to bust my balls about this, within reason, because that's what we do.
You are also going to see less of me on Facebook and Tumblr (those that have found my tumblr page). One of the issues I feel has been a big part of these feelings is I get sucked into social media as a way to ignore, forget. I literally jump from FB to Tumblr to Feedly to local news, then do it all over again. A lot of what I read is upsetting or frustrating to me (read: negative), so I am going to try and remove that from my life as best I can. If anyone needs to get a hold of me, please do so at the podismycopilot gmail addy. I will also continue posting on Instagram and will jump on Twitter every once in a while. FB and Tumblr seem to be the main culprits of frustration for me, so they're going a way for a while.
Part of me doesn't necessarily want to post this, and I don't want it to read as a cry for attention - I assure you, it's not. This isn't fun. But I know that as our show is a personal journal podcast, I would be talking about this issue (hopefully with humor) on the show, but wanted a way to get my reasoning/points across without going off tangent or being distracted as we sometimes get on PiMC (shocking, I know.) I'm going to thank you all publicly now for the support I know you are going to give me from across the world. Please be patient with me while I figure this all out (or do my best to try to.) Please also be patient if I don't respond to words of encouragement right away. I promise I will look at them and appreciate every single word.
I'm still the same Taylor. We're still going to be the same show. And I appreciate each and every one of you that listens to our show and reads this post
Love to you all,
PS. When Pride48 comes back with a state of the station, if I'm not back on here, could someone shoot me an email so I know when to listen? Thanks! :)
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Monday, April 14, 2014
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
We talk Captain America 2, Rodan's Job search, Drag Race (It's a law, people - gay podcasts have to talk about RPDR at least once a year or they lose their podcasting licenses) and other pop culture....Oh, and Taylor reads Taffy and Rodan a bedtime story!
@PiMCTaylor, @PiMCTaffy, @RodanPiMC
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Thursday, April 3, 2014
Because GOD FORBID Kevin in Danbury has to wait a day for an episode, we're back. We talk about TV, including a spoilerfree (ish) Walking Dead finale, Rodan is trying to define himself, Taylor is fighting with technology, and we get to hear what Taffy does when she thinks she's alone.
@pimctaylor, @pimctaffy, @rodanpimc
Thursday, March 27, 2014
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
(NOTE: We are aware of the not so funny irony of a lengthy conversation we have given Rodan's recent news he shared on Facebook (and I'm sure will talk about on the next show.) We also love and cherish our favorite giraffe, and know he'll land on his feet soon!)
Taylor is old, Taffy's is still moving (and trying to kill her husband in the process) and Rodan is a zombie, wandering through his thirties and living by the Gospel According to The Snorks. Getting serious and yelling at kids to get off our lawns, we are Pod Is My Copilot.
@PiMCTaylor, @PiMCTaffy and @RodanPiMC